Is exhaustion a symptom around 38 weeks? If so, I have it. I think I could sleep for days at this point. I may be the whiniest pregnant lady on the planet right now. I sound like a broken record: “Wah, I’m tired, wah, my back hurts, wah, I have stretch marks, wah, I have to pee AGAIN!” Enough of this pregnancy stuff, just give me the baby already!
Since my last update, I’ve had a few appointments including an ultrasound where they predicted that Lucia is already 6lbs, 11oz! Ultrasound measurements can be off by a couple of pounds in either direction but part of me really believes this girl is huge. Charlie moved a lot in utero but Lucia’s movements feel much bigger and I constantly feel her in my ribs.
I’ve also scheduled a “just in case” c-section for April 18th, ten days after my due date. I figure by then, if I don’t go into labor naturally that I’ll be more than ready to have this baby out of me by any means necessary.
I have a few more days of work and then I can relax at home and just wait for this little girl’s arrival.
37 weeks, 5 days. I know I will have a baby sometime between now and April 18th but some days I convince myself that I’ll be pregnant forever.
Having breakfast with her baby. Soon, her baby sister will be able to join them.
…..for 5 whole weeks.
My original plan was to nurse Charlie until she turned two but I had to rush things along a little because I really don’t want to nurse two kids at once. Weaning was a lot easier and harder than I thought it would be. Charlie dropped all but two nursing sessions herself. By the end, I was nursing her before her nap on the weekends and only 2 – 3 nights a week before bed. I probably could have weaned her a lot sooner but I always ended up giving into her requests for “Mama milk” because I was usually too tired to put up with an angry toddler. Finally, the past two weeks I had had enough. She was no longer nursing for just a few minutes, she wanted to nurse for 45 minutes to an hour, something she hadn’t done in months. I felt like we were going backwards.
With Conor’s encouragement, I finally just said no one day. Like most toddlers, she likes being thought of as a big kid. I basically said, “Mama’s milk is for babies and you’re a big girl now.” I asked her if she was a big girl and she thought about it for a minute before saying no. Nice try but I stood my ground and refused to nurse her. We cuddled a little before bed and she eventually fell asleep on her own. The next time I put her to bed, she asked for Mama’s milk and I reminded her that she’s a big girl now. This time SHE told me that mama’s milk is for babies. Such a relief.
So, I have about a month where I won’t have to worry about breastfeeding. To be honest, I’m both looking forward to and dreading having to nurse a newborn again. I’m mostly dreading the beginning and the possibility of being in pain for a few weeks but hopefully, knowing how wonderful a good breastfeeding relationship can be will get me through it.